Unstable Concoction

It's true what Jasryn said about Chinese New Year being about a family gathering and all..

It's not really a happy Chinese New Year this year for my family
and no,it's not because

1. there are less kids playing with firecrackers around
2. there are less decorations being put up this year
3. there are less chinese new year songs being played almost everywhere

My grandaunt who always cooks a big feast for us during reunion dinners has stomach ulcer and is unable to cook for us this year.

Thus, we do not have any reunion dinner this year.

and this morning, we received a shocking phone call from my aunt.
My grandmother had a stroke. A serious one too.
We all rushed to the Adventist Hospital only to see my grandmother being transferred to Loh Guan Lye because it's the eve of Chinese New Year and there are no neurologist around.
After a few scans and all, we found out that she's had quite a serious stroke and that she has to be under strict observations for 72 hours in hopes of it becoming stable and it won't worsen.
Another thing to worry about is her weak heart and irregular heart beats.
It saddens me to know that my grandmother who cooks us good food all the time won't be able to cook for us anymore now that she's paralyzed on one side.
It saddens me to to see my aunts and uncle so worried about her and what to do.
It saddens me to see my grandmother lying on the bed in ICU, semi unconscious instead of celebrating the eve of Chinese New Year with us.

I guess all I can really do now is to just pray and hopefully she'll recover soon enough.

Chinese New Year visitation thingy will start in the hospital tomorrow morning.
Suddenly, Chinese New Year is not about wearing new clothes, eating good food, and receiving red packets anymore.

I bust the windows out your car
And though it didn’t mend my broken heart
Ill probably always have these ugly scars
but right now I don’t care about that part.
I bust the windows out your car
After I saw you laying next to her
I didn’t wanna but I took my turn
I’m glad I did it cuz you had to learn


I bust the windows out ya car
You know I did it cuz I left my mark
Wrote my initials with the crowbar
And then I drove off into the dark


I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel when you saw it
I didn’t know that I had that much strength
But I’m glad you see what happens when
You see you cant just play with peoples feelings
Tell them you love them but don’t mean it
You probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile
Bust them windows out yo car
But it don’t come back to my broken heart
You could neva feel I how I felt that day
Until it happens baby you don’t know pain
Ooh Yeah I did it (yeah I did it)
You should know it (you should kno it)
I ain’t sorry (I ain’t sorry)
You deserved it (you deserved it)
After what you did to me (after what you did)
You deserve it (you deserve it)
I ain’t sorry no no ohhh(I aint sorry)
You broke my heart so I broke you car
You caused me pain (you caused me pain)
(So I did the same)
Even though what you did to me was much worse
I had to do something to make you hurt
Oh but why am I still crying
Why am I the one who’s still crying
Oh oh really hurt me baby
really,really hurt me baby